Health.

So lately I've been trying to get healthy under a tight budget.
Healthy eating typically isn't difficult to me, because my mum is pretty health conscious, and she cooks most of the meals. I mostly watch what I eat. I'm not trying to restrict too much, because if I ever want to eat a regular meal again, I know I'll continue eating regular/big portions and I will gain a lot of weight. I've been playing a lot of DDR, and trying to do exercises at home (since I am too paranoid to go to the gym alone.)
I mostly mean my hair and skin. I've stopped using products on my hair. (except shampoo and conditioner) I use olive oil to moisturize, although I still use my flat iron. I want to continue straightening my hair. For a moment I thought maybe I'd go all the way natural, but it just wasn't for me. I'm just not used to my natural hair being the way it is right now. I'm used to ramen, which I don't have anymore. :(
I've been working really hard on my skin, though. As I type I have an oatmeal-egg white-honey mask. (1 egg white, 1 tablespoon of honey. Whisk the two until frothy. Add finely chopped oats until it makes a paste.) But let's backtrack.
I said I want my cuteness back, and I'm going to get it back! I was getting my daily intake of lolita and other kawaii things, when I read about "Lolita Skin Care" on a forum. It gave this recipe(1/4 cup water, 1/4 olive oil, Sugar until paste) for body scrub. I tried it and it worked SO WELL. (body=dry winter skin). So, this inspired me to move on to other things, especially because this scrub didn't work on the skin on my face (combination skin, ech.)
So I tried washing my face like normal and then doing an egg mask. (1 egg white, whisked until frothy. Apply to face. Wait until completely dry [10-15 minutes?]. Rinse. 1 egg yolk, apply to face. Wait until completely dry [same]. Rinse.) It didn't do much for me. (I think it was the egg yolk... orz)
So today, I went all out. Before I took a shower, I started boiling water. When I finished, I lowered the heat a bit and started making my concoctions. Oatmeal-egg white-honey mask as well as a simple scrub: baking soda-water scrub. Water, add baking soda until paste. When I was done making them, I put the pot of water on the table, held my face above the pot and covered my head with a towel. (Like a little steam room. XD) Did this for ten minutes. I had to kinda lift the towel up on the sides to let some out, because obviously it was kinda hard to breathe. After this, I rubbed my blackheads gently with toilet paper. Put on the oatmeal mask. Let it sit for ten minutes. Rinsed. Then I scrubbed my face with the baking soda scrub, and left it on for two minutes, tops. Rinsed. Applied toner. Moisturized where it was needed, and voila! My skin feels fantastic. XD I hope it stays this way.
I plan on doing this once a week and exfoliating with the baking soda like every other day. Hopefully I will look and feel better soon!

And then cold happens.

The fall was nice at first but now it's freezing and rainy all the damn time. It's making me very irritable and depressed. On top of that, I've had a cold that turned into a sore throat/cough. Ugh!

Have I been drawing? Only commissions on Gaia. Have I been taking photos? No, cos I've been sick. Well, I've taken plenty of photos since the first one. I think I am getting closer to my dream of being cute. Denise, Eric and I have been trying to learn Japanese, but I'm so forgetful without a tutor or teacher. u__u Well, it's been fun so I don't care. I suppose we can wait to afford it some day, but in the meantime what we've been doing is fine.

Found another cute avatar site, Tinier Me which I've been having fun with.

Eric and I talked yesterday. Let's say, I've been having problems. I've been having problems for a while, and he hasn't remedied this. He finally realized it, but even though he said he would try to change and improve, I'm still skeptical and my problems haven't changed. I've been waiting it out for a long while. Waiting isn't really my thing.

I am a typical and atypical princess. Hope this wasn't too confusing, though it probably is! Oh well.

So!

In my quest to become cute, I've discovered- being cute is all about confidence! No one believes a person who is under confident like I am. I read a few tips to become self confident.
Dress well, walk faster (check!), good posture, compliment yourself/highlight good traits, gratitude, compliment other people, speak up, and work out!
I've already started working on my clothes (buying less baggy and unflattering clothes). I really need to work on my posture and my.. voice. XD I need to be louder. I will try to run today when it gets darker.
I've also started a photo project to help me build confidence in my appearance. One photo a day.

I am beautiful

I finally installed the asian language pack so I can see all of the characters instead of weird squares with numbers in them. Ah, it feels so good to see an actual language. XD
I've created a cute character, kinda through the buddy poke thing. :]

And that's it!
If you also need to boost your confidence you should do the same as me, and we can support each other. :)

NYAF: Days 2 & 3

Day two... I forgot because I didn't write it right away, but I remember being irritated almost the entire time. I was in like survival mode this entire weekend so my hunger didn't bother me too much. My boots were killing me, it was way too crowded, I tore my petti because my boot got caught in it and no one would help me get it out... I dunno, a lot of things. I had a good time at panels and screenings but irritation was always buzzing around my head for some reason. Ummm, we watched the first three episodes of Soul Eater- interesting! I've been meaning to watch it for a while and never got around to it. I hate Black Star though. (Seriously- "BELIEVE IT!" style.) The Masquerade was really cool, as usual. Uncle Yo was hilarious,as usual. Oh! That reminds me- we only watched some of his stand up in the morning because the steampunk in anime panel was yesterday! It was cool, although they listed the animes way too fast and we kinda missed most of the list. u__u But the discussion was nice. Oh, I pretty much wore the same outfit, except with kitty ears and collar.

Day three. Wore jeans, corset (on the black side), cat collar, cat ears (which I took off because they like, recede because my hair doesn't hold anything in place), platform shoes, star shirt, black sweater. Not too out of the ordinary.
Bought: two shirts, a Reni Mimura CD, circle lenses (contacts that make your eyes look big and cute), two pairs of earrings, and a necklace. More about this later.
Today we went to (shortly) finding anime in new york. I'm sorry, that speaker had the ability to make anything boring. It was informative though. We went to the neo-victorian fashion show, GORGEOUS pieces. Seriously. It's mostly lolita, with some added elegant gothic lolita. Loved the queen outfit!! And we went to the anime parliament. It's brilliant in concept and is hilarious when executed well, but we didn't have the time to discuss more things. (Today we discussed that Gohan should have been taken away by child services because of events during Dragon Ball, Sasuke and how he could have taken the good path- comparison to batman, and bishounen in gundam [a shonen anime].) This morning was great though- one of the booths plays music really loud. So a little dance party broke out during "Celebrate" (Holiday! Celebrate!)- obvvviously we started dancing as well. Then we got Rick Roll'd! We danced to that EVERYONE joined in at that one. Then YMCA came on! Then.. "Give it to me baby" By rick james came on, and we started a soul train but security came and fucked everything up. NYAF doesn't have a rave so we were getting dance in anywhere we could. u__u
People randomly were playing twister! lol!
Anyway, we said bye to everyone when we walked out (seriously.) "Hope you had a great time! See you next year! We'll miss you!" We got lots of hugs. :3
So our new goal (Denise and I) is to be super cute (to continue from earlier.) Our inspiration is Reni Mimura- SHE IS SO ADORABLE WE WANTED TO KILL OURSELVES. So I the things I bought were cute. Bunny earrings to match the bunny ring I got, ice cream necklace to match the ice cream ring I bought, I bought This in black, and (I can't find a picture) but a brownie shirt that says "Every day is sweet" on it. So... yup, that's my new goal!
I'm seriously going to miss it though, I love the sense of community and the love between anime fans. It's seriously great. I wonder where I can get that during the year.